Half Way Through My Fast
On February 1st I announced on my blog that I would go on a February Fast cutting out political news from my daily diet and taking my own energy back. I would meditate from 5 to 6 pm instead of watching Chris Matthews and re-direct my energy toward that which I value.
I want to share with you what I’ve observed.
When a plane makes a very small, microscopic shift in direction it will end up in a different country. In fact, most of the time pilots are flying they are adjusting course. Flying is a series of mini-course corrections until the desired destination is reached. I should not have been surprised by the impact that this one small change could make in my life, but I was. By giving up political news, reading, and radio, I regained time. Probably 10 to 15 hours per week.
The past three months I have had extensive leg, groin, and back pain. Metaphysically this means an inability to move, feeling unsupported, and being stuck. In chakra language this meant activated issues around survival, creativity, and emotional overwhelm. My pain had become so severe I spent some days in bed and other days in a scream-out-loud pain. I regained my body and its mobility. Yep. I invested some of the time I would have been vigilantly watching the news, to instead, read the latest research on spiritual practices and their power on the body. Then I engaged in practices that I know free energy so the body can morph itself back into health. Within the two week period of my fast coupled with increased spiritual practice, my leg pain has left my body and I am returning to full physical capacity.
I started laughing again. Deep, full, belly laugh … laughing again. I regained my humor. Along with this evidence of Joy has come a softening in my perception and a return to feeling like my pre-Trump self. Not fully, but more so. I noticed that when consumed with the media messages my energy field was in-coherent. I would have lots of energy and then little to no energy, vacillating all over the energy spectrum. I felt energetically choppy and chaotic. Taking back my attention, I have returned to coherence. I have a more consistent experience of my own energy field and there is a gentle rhythm internally.
My work has taken off. I have regained my commitment to production. Production in my line of work means teaching, private sessions, speaking, service, and writing. All areas have increased and I have the time to fulfill what is mine to do.
I have regained my ability to see miracles, recognize Grace, and be grateful for my life.
Seepage happens. Although I didn’t intentionally engage in political news, it would pop up on my phone, interrupt music stations on the radio, be in the background of a hair salon, come up in a lecture … I couldn’t seem to escape ALL of it. When seepage happened, I didn’t freak out, I embraced it. I blessed it. I figured my Soul needed to stand witness to that moment so that it could be vibrationally shifted. The difference is, I didn’t engage in it and give it power.
I am aware that regaining doesn’t mean I lost anything somewhere else. It means I gave my energy away and have now taken it back. I have been at choice with where I direct my attention at all times. This, too, was a great reminder.
I don’t know who I’ll be, where I’ll be, or what I’ll do when the fast is over. Right now I am simply enjoying this moment.
Meditation is a state of mind which looks at everything with complete attention, totally, not just parts of it. And no one can teach you how to be attentive. If any system teaches you how to be attentive, then you are attentive to the system, and that is not attention. Jiddu Krishnamurti