Losing Faith

So much is happening in the world right now and it has caught my attention. Like, REALLY caught my attention. So much so, that as the sensitive empath that I am, I have become caught up in the pain, drama, and trauma and stepped shifted my attention from The Source. I have watched my Faith battery become low and it has effected my mind and body. What to do?

I found myself completely falling apart for twenty four hours. It could be the immense amount of traveling I have been doing, or the messaging I have given my attention to. It could be neglecting time to myself. It could be all of this and more. I never know, really.

I let myself fall apart while I fought loving myself through the disintegration process. Toward the end of the tears I recalled my commitment to practicing loving ALL OF MY EMOTIONS so, I did. I realized I was in distress. I began practicing being present to the Love of God during the distress. Not making myself wrong. Not pushing away the Light. Then my travels ended. I returned home. It felt real good. Stepping inside the back door after placing my last suitcase and bag on the floor. Aahhh. Nothing like it.

Now home, I am courting Faith. The Faith of God, the Faith of Good.

How am I doing it? I am returning to the basics.

I woke up this morning to a slew of texts. I responded to each text saying that I was going into meditation and prayer and will respond later today or tomorrow. I decide it will be tomorrow and today I turn my electronics off. Then, I read spiritual food. I read to remind myself of what is True as I sit in the vibration of The Truth, whether I can feel It or not. Then I journal. I journal forgiveness of myself for giving my attention to form and fear, and not to Source. I forgive other people for perceived trespasses to be keenly aware that I am forgiving or wiping clean my own consciousness as they reflect what is going on within me. I make a list of my wants and gratitudes. I pray for clients and friends. And I sit in silence allowing Divine Presence to bathe me. Boy, my body is hungry for this energy bath.

I have committed to a day of unpacking, quiet, a few walks, and a phone that will be in the off mode. I choose a low tech, no tech day with books, not devices. NOTHING is worth the cost of losing Faith right now. While in meditation I ask to be shown what is mine to do through the end of the year. I take note of many unfinished tasks. I will focus on completions. That was my theme for 2025 and I’ve done a pretty good job of it and I recommit to more.

Regrouping is a regular shamanic practice of reclaiming dispersed energy. I consider this time and this day Holy. I am grateful for the awareness that in the midst of perceived distance or mess, I still remember that Oneness includes the Unified Within.

With Love,

Reverend Bonnie