Trauma, Healing, and God

This weekend I’ll be attending the memorial service for a woman I went to high school with. She was talented, knock-down gorgeous, from a wealthy family and smart. She had everything going for her, except she didn’t. She had been sexually molested as a child by her father’s best friend. And, she never got over it. She never healed. She never started fresh. The trauma was too heavy.

She became addicted to alcohol and pills. Despite many attempts to coerce her into rehab, she never went. She never married. She never had kids. She would tell you how broken she felt any chance she got. The trauma was loud, and it was unhealed.

Our jails are filled with people who have unhealed trauma. Our alcoholic and drug addicted brothers and sisters most all carry trauma. Unhealed wounds define our perception of ourselve until Deep, Divine Love fills the places where the trauma once was dominate. Divine Love is the only thing I know of that can fill the holes and lift the Spirit, and it can feel like heavy lifting.

Right now the Jeffrey Epstein women, once girls, are in the news. It is my hope that this high profile trafficking case teaches our country the impact of trauma. How promise turns into pain turns into fear and morphs a life from one of possibility and potential to one of defeat. One of of three women and girls report sexual trauma, and of course there are more unreported. There is physical abuse in families. There is emotional terror in families, too. Trauma, which changes one’s nervous system and informs decision making has run amok. And I often find myself in prayer for those who have lost themselves to this pain.

Einstein we can’t solve a problem at the source of its creation. This is where the Power and Presence of Divine Love comes in. When I type it, it sounds trite, it sound sloganny. Yet I have found it to be The Truth. Once a person taps into the pain, feels it, names it, gets under it and realizes that the pain IS NOT them, Divine Love has space to reveal Itself. It is the very fabric of each of us and can be shared once It is recognized. Once witnessed, it becomes clear It has been the underpinning to all Life and shift begins to happen. It can take time. It can take a long time. And it can also be healed in an instant.

As I look forward to this upcoming memorial service, I look forward to standing witness to a life. To a woman’s life. To a life of struggle. To a friend. I continue to pray for all of humanity, we have a lot of learning, healing, and growing left to do. Each step of the way we deserve the Divine Love that we are.

Prayer:

There is One Life, One Love, One Presence I call God, science calls it Energy. It is the beginning and the end of all Life — the Alpha and the Omega.

This Divine Presence IS all of creation that which is seen and unseen.

As God is Love and is All, this means that I too am Love. I am made of Love-stuff. My prayer today is that I see this within myself, I live this outwardly and I embrace a life of Love. I claim any part of my being that is morphed by trauma be uplifted and transformed by this Love. I pray as I see my brothers and sisters acting out of trauma, I may show up as a Living, Loving Force for Good. I bless humanity right now knowing we are at choice and I choose Higher.

Amen.