Bringing Love to It All
Most mornings for me begin with a several mile walk to a coffee shop, sitting in an overstuffed chair with an herbal ice tea in one hand and a book in the other, and then walking back home. Throughout this “me” time I am provided with an onslaught of insight about my life. I may remember who I’ve been or I experience being pulled into who I’m becoming. More often, I am practicing being present with each step and each breath.
This year I turn fifty. I see this as permission to strip away and shed all voices except my One True Voice. Maybe they aren’t stripped or shed, but they certainly are encouraged to take second place to the One True Voice. She comes forward on occassion with some brilliant recognition, more often then not, she comes forward with a deep love and I translate that well of feeling into words.
I have been working on a book, well several to be honest, and I haven’t liked the “voice” I’ve been writing from. It is an old, tired, dying off voice, and yet it is the one I’m grasping at the moment, so I write from her. Occassionally the One True Voice steps in and the writing is richer. There is a spaciousness with her. As I was walking today I was flooded, again, with how my wounded youthful self did the best she could and in the process hurt others. I know I create from the energy I am in, and many of my former creations weren’t pretty. I begin seeing in my mind and feeling in my being these offenses. It is a beautiful inventory process as I have lived this process, now, for years, and know I will receive more energy at the end of it, and Love to replace the ignorance.
With each internal picture flashing upon my mental screen, the One True Voice says to me “bring love to it all.” And I do, well, I guess it’s me, She feels more like Divine Grace. What I am aware I do, is stay out of the way and allow the process to complete itself. My role is acceptance. I watch and simultaneously feel the energy within me morphing.
I return home and sit in contemplation. I contemplate a life of “bringing love to it all.”